Right now, I am a little sketchy on what is going on in our near future. All I know is that I have another u/s tomorrow morning, then on Friday I have the D&C scheduled in the morning. I am a little scared of the procedure, but I know a lot of people have to go through it. I still am feeling very sick and it is very aggravating to be constantly reminded of what's going on.
The doctor said that if it is what she thinks it is (separated uterus- there is a fancy medical name for it, but I wasn't listening), Ethan is truly a miracle. I should've never have been able to carry him to term. All the stars were aligned when he was in my belly and I couldn't be more thankful for having him in my life. Despite the recent heartbreak, I truly am blessed.
I don't think this answered all the questions you all have, and I myself have a lot of questions, but I will definitely update you as much as I can. I do know that normally doctors have to wait for 3 miscarries to research the problem, but my doctor is going to do it now. I have to get some blood tests and a MRI.
From the bottom of mine and my family's heart we want to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. We are very lucky to have you all in our lives.
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Thinking about you!
That's all I can say right now...
Heather, thank you for taking the time to explain it for us. I am grateful that you did, but you didn't need to do that.
I can't even imagine. I can't express in words how much my heart literally aches for you right now. I'm crying. It isn't fair. You've already been through so much.
Psalms 6:2-7
"2 Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint; O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony.
3 My soul is in anguish.How long, O LORD, how long?
4 Turn, O LORD, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.
5 No one remembers you when he is dead.Who praises you from the grave [b] ?
6 I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears.
7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes."
/big virtual hug for you girl...may God hold you tightly in his arms as you grieve.
Praise God for the miracle of Ethan and pray for peace and comfort for you.
The D&C is pretty simple. The anticipation is worse than the actual procedure. You have my email if you have any questions.
I hope you get some answers and that you will be blessed with babies in the future. Still holding you in my heart.
oh, it can't be normal that I'm crying for you, when we've never met, but I am. Sorry isn't enough, but it's all I've got. It's not fair, it's just awful. I will be thinking of you, and sending strength.
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