I think I am going crazy

I woke up this morning and took a test. I definitely see a second line, BUT I don't think it is where it is supposed to be. I think it may be a malfucntion. I hope not, but who knows. I asked Ryan and he saw it too. I still see it. This better be it after so long of trying and a heart breaking miscarriage. I feel sick to my stomach, but it could be the stomach virus. Oh, and I am not taking my progesterone this cycle. I just wasn't able to. There was so much going on, that it was too hard and I didn't think we had a chance. I think God was telling me that I don't need it. He pulled me from all angles so I couldn't take it. So if I am pregnant, i'm getting my levels checked right away. I have a great doctor and I know she will be okay with that.

Ethan is still sick. We went to the doctor again today and they took a urine and blood test. He has protein in his urine and is dehydrated. They are watching him because of the protein. Nothing major, but he needs to go back on Monday to do the tests again. He is starting to act more like himself today and that made me super happy. I just want him to get better real fast.

We made cookies tonight for Nora's birthday party on Saturday. I'll post pictures later when I get a chance. We did some mickey mouse and some girly ones.

Ok, I am babbling, so I need to go and get some sleep to test again tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed and prayers coming!